Smokes Baby

It has been so long!

I went to extravadance last night and remember how you, rach and I went last winter. They still had that nasty banjo band playing at the beginning. haha it was so funny!

How is everything going for you? Things w the fam and Dave? School and work?

Everything w me is the same... I'm so excited for thanksgiving break. I'm flying to Colorado w Ben and It's going to be so fun and a very much needed break. I can't believe the semester is almost almost over and that I'm almost half way through the program. It's so crazy! It's going good though, definitely a lot harder, busier and a lot more stress. I handle it better some days than others haha I'm sure you remember :-/ haha

I don't have tons of time but I wanted to say hi cause I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I love you girl, I hope your life is great. :)

oh my gosh i miss you!

wow rach! that was quite the story. can i just tell you that your example to always rely on your Heavenly Father in times like that is amazing! you are such a wonderful girl and i'm sad that i don't ever see you or talk to you. :( BUT i am SO HAPPY that you are happy and in love girly! thats so awesome! i can't believe that my baby girl i talking about getting married...is kinda weird. but i think something is in the water because amelia is pretty much engaged and i'll tell you abut dave here in just a second.

okay so here is goes...Christopher and Scarlet are doing really well. They are living in Texas right now and she leaves for Guatemala the end of this week. Then they fly back on Christmas day, get married on the 27th, honeymoon and its off to Tennessee for Christopher to start school the first week in January. So thats kinda crazy and i miss him but its good and they are happy. My mom is ridiculously in love and its the best thing in the world to see her that way. They got married just over two weeks ago and its the freaking cutest thing ever! haha the wedding was perfect and they are perfect for each other. I've never seen my mom this happy!

As for Dave...we've been dating for just over 2 months and things are going great. He is the biggest tease but still is the sweetest guy ever! If you want to kno the whole story of how we met and stuff then just let me know. I just don't want to bore you! ha But W\who knows, maybe we'll be planning our weddings at the same time! haha

Work is going really well. I am working at Utah Valley Regional Medical Center on the Psychiatric floor and i absolutely LOVE it! School is still in the making because i'm still trying to get all the paper work done for BYU-I to take the credits off campus and its the biggest pain in the butt! Anyway, other then that things are going really well and life is just moving along.

I just moved into my new place and its so cute and i love it. Things just got a little out of control with Callie and i couldn't take being there anymore so i told her i was done playing these stupid games and i was leaving, and i did and that was that! ha its kind of ridiculous actually but what can ya do huh?!

well i love you and i hope that you figure things out with Ben. sounds like a keeper! hope school and everything is going good! i miss you! muah!

Oh my gosh Cal I don't even know where to start. First I'm going to ask you all these questions and you have to answer every single one of them!!! haha so who is this Dave boy?!! Give me the skinny on him! And then how is your job, what exactly are you doing and how is the school situation? How are Christopher and Scarlett and your mom and her man? And lastly what the heck happened with Cal that was so bad you had to move? Are you ok?

Cal, I'm so in love with Ben I can't even tell you! We've been dating for like 2 1/2 months is all but we've grown a lot cause I went home for the 7 week break and he stayed in the Burg (he's from Colorado) we talked every night on the phone and got to know each other so well that way cause it was all we had ya know? Of course my dad is being difficult but what else is new? ;)

This story is so condensed it's gonna be way crap for brains but that's ok. So earlier this week I totally had freak out and got a really strong impression that I needed to break up with him. I didn't want to at all and I was so stressed out about it. Abe came and gave me a blessing, I fasted and talked to Bishop Robinson (even though he isn't my bishop anymore haha) and then I went to the temple. The feeling that I got there was so amazing. I've seriously never felt anything that good in my life. I was feeling peacefull to some degree and I just thought "I need to break up w him and it's gonna suck so much and be so hard but it's what i need to do." But at the same time I couln't make a real decision and I couldn't actually do it. So that's why I was fasting and stuff was to know if that prompting I had gotten was legit or not. Anyway, for the first half of the time I was in the temple obviously i felt good cause it's the temple right? I can't explin it but I just didn't feel completely at ease. So I was reading my blessing after and praying like crazy and i realized I was so confused because I couldn't make a decision. I didnt' want to brake up w him but I was willing to do it if it was what Heavenly Father wanted. So I didn't want to but at the same time i did if that makes sense. So I'm in the temple and I realize I need to make my decision. I choose to be selfish and I decided I wanted to keep dating him. The feeling that I got after is practically indescribable Cal. I literally thought my heart was going to explode! Just like how they say burning in your bosom... well I felt it. A huge burden was lifted and my mind was clear. i wasn't sad, or confused. All I felt was joy and peace. And the fact that i was in the temple was a strong indicator for me that what I was feeling was the spirit. I have such a hard time sometimes deciphering my thoughts from the spirit but i know in my heart what I felt. It's so amazing feeling this way. It's moving so fast which is scary but at the same time not beacuse I care about him so much, I can't wait to be with him forvever. there's still a chance that it might not work out. I haven't asked and gotten an answer that way and I fell like it's to soon for that right now. If anything happened we wouldn't get engaged til winter semester but still, I think it most likely will end up that way ! :)

enought about that! haha Nursing is picking up with the school load. I had my first 12 hour clinical yesterday. I LOVED it!! We're at Madison this semester and it's so much better than EIRMC I can't even tell you. We had our Phlebotomy lab on friday and I got both my IV start and blood draw. It still scares me to do it cause we only did each one once, but it was fun! I am so excited to get done and be a nurse for real but I'm so glad that I still have 3 semesters to learn cause there is seriously so much to know! I'm sure you're feeling exactly the same way with where you are. I could talk to you forever about this too but my big thing I wanted to tell you about was Ben and It'll probably already take you hours to read and write back to all my questions so I'll let you go but I love you and miss you and can't wait to hear from you!

long time no chat!

Rachie Face!

my gosh its been forever! i don't even know if you check this anymore but i just wanted to hop on and say hi and that i hope things are going well for you and i miss you! if you do check this fill me in on how school and everything is going! oh and the boy...what is going on there?! well i have to run check on my patients but i love you and i hope to hear from you soon! muah!!!

long time...

rachie! so i'm still going to call you but just in case you read this before, american idol was hilariously entertaining and i loved every second of it! the people were total wack jobs and it was freaking sweet!

also just to inform you i met the most amazing guy ever! his name is dave, he is a total babe and basically rocks my world!

the end

BABY GIRL!

HELLO!!!!

okay so was thinking about you today because i figured you'd be moving home and i was wondering where Ben is from? what are you guys going to do now that you have this 7 week break?! fill me in sista! :)


so i went shooting on thursday night and it was SO fun! i want with this boy from my ward and then we raced up the side of this huge mountain and of course...i won! haha

anyway, so how random is this...Blair and i have been talking on and off the whole summer and so he calls me the other day and is being totally gay, and saying all of these stupid things and i made a comment about him never taking anything serious. so when we got off the phone he sent me a text that was like, when you're ready for a serious conversation i'm down. i text back and was like what are we going to talk about? so he calls me and we start talking and then he goes, okay you want serious, fasten your seatbelt because its about to get crazy in here. and then he starts to tell me that he wishes i would never had left idaho, and that we could have kept dating, and that when i asked him if he saw things going anywhere with us he wishes he would have said yes i want to date you and lets do long distance, and that he kicks himself everyday for letting me go. so i was like WHOA! and ya i didn't really have anything to say to him and then he goes, so i'm coming down to visit you so i can see if there is still anything there with us. and i was like um....okay...

basically it was really weird because i don't want to see if there is anything there because even if there was i don't want a long distance relationship so i really don't know what is going on but ya. haha just thought i'd fill you in.

well i have to run meet my mom and the planner about the wedding. love you baby girl! muah!

La la La la la La!

Remember how we used to hold hands and skip and sing that on our way home from class?!! Awe, I miss you!

Hmm... It kinda sounds like you're pretending that you're excited about having dear miss Scarlet as a permanent member of the family. :) Maybe with time she'll mellow out, and also once she's officially family you can be mean to her cause that's what siblings are for right?! Ok, totally kidding!! ;)

It was so good to talk to you the other day, I was way ecxited to hear your pretty lilttle voice! I forget if you've done it or not yet, but I want you to look on facebook and tell me what you think of him... I think I did pretty good, besides the fact that he has a mulet! (sounds of me vomiting) haha it's lovely. :) He's kind of had a skechy past I think but I know he's working on it, and even though it makes me kind of nervous, I don't think it's fair to judge someone on their past ya know? So hopefully this isn't a huge mistake on my part :-/

I always forget to ask you about it but I want to hear about Mexico really bad! like how you signed up, what you did, how long you were there! Just everything! I bet it was the most amazing experience!

I totally agree that we need pictures up... we'll both try and figure it out and keep each other updated. I want you to see my perm! haha it sounds grose but I like it. Anyway girl I better run and crack my butt into homework mode. But I love your stinkin guts girl and I miss ya like crazy! I hope you have an awesome week! I'm thinking of you. :)

Real Quick

Hey lover! so i figured i haven't written on this in a while and its about time! Well as you know life is going fabulously and I'm loving work and where I'm at. Christopher and Scarlet set a date... December 27th. Crazy huh?! He bought the ring and he is proposing in the next few weeks. Ask me in a few months if i'm okay with it and maybe i'll be used to the idea! haha just kidding i'm really happy for them!

I know i've said this a lot of times but i'm really happy that you are happy! and i want to hear more about Ben and you little love birds!

Well i know this is really short but i have to run and but i just wanted to say hi really fast! oh and i'm putting some pictures on here because i think that we need them. well maybe if i can figure out how to add them. haha love you SOOOOOO much! MUAH!

Cal Bal

Cool of me that I'm just barely getting back to you!! haha your jobs sound absolutley AMAZING! Can I just tell you that I am quite jealous??

Life has had it's ups and downs...I've been really overwhelmed w everythign this semester and when I finally get a hold of it I realize that it's usually because I haven't been putting the Lord first. So it's also been a learning experience and I'm constantly being humbled. :) Also I think it's been harder because I don't have an outlet slash fun amazing best friend to take my mind off of school and play with me! There are a lot of really cute girls in nursing though but you know how it sometimes just takes a while to get to know each other especially since I was so used to being SO close with you ya know?

School is good though, we just passed off shots, and let's be honest, giving shots is dang fun! haha I got to watch a trauma in the ER a few clinicals ago and am so set on being an ER nurse more than I was before! The boys are crazy...still the same-if I like them they like someone else or they like me and are super weird. It's fun. :)

It's finally getting warm here and I love it! Summers up here are awesome! K, you'll laugh so hard at how granola I've become... haha I totally got a loose perm/body wave put in my hair so that I don't have to do it anymore! I just let it dry and off I go, and I've stopped wearing make up completely! haha which might be the reason for my guy issues- hm....

K well I better run but I love your stinking guts and I miss you like crazy! MUAH!

We Really Are Twinners!

Hey love! Haha so funny story, my phone is broken too and I’m waiting until I can pick it up this weekend! And ya sorry about the whole boyfriend thing. I did talk to Abe yesterday, its kinda funny that I always seem to talk to him on the days that I’m a little stressed. He really is such a good kid. Ya about the boyfriend, it was really rough because I gave him an ultimatum and he let me walk without a fight, which crushed me. This might be really lame but I didn’t even go into work today because I was just kinda depressed. But what can ya do. Move on a guess.

Anyway, mexico was AMAZING!!!! seriously it was one of the best experiences eva! and I’m working in employee health at the hospital where I do all of their blood draws and immunizations, and one the weekends I work at the urgent care. The other day I gave this guy stitches because he sliced his finger with pruning sheers, and I had to staple this little girls head together, so its more exciting there but both jobs are really fun!

How is school going for you?! I hope you are loving it! I miss you like crazy!!! I’m glad we started this blog because otherwise we would not keep in touch as much (which still isn’t enough I might add!)

Well I better run because I have to get up early. I miss and love you as well! Hope to hear back from you soon!

XOXOXO

k so we gotta step it up

AH CAL I MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!

Seriously, life is so not the same with out you. Like this morning after getting ready, I went back into our room and it totally smelled like FUNK! our room never used to stink like nasty body. :( haha I'm so sorry that I didnt' get back to you last week. I hate that we never talk...I feel like we aren't even friends anymore and I'm so over it!

I can't believe you had a boyfriend and didn't even tell me! That's probably why we never talk anymore haha If you were here I would give you a wedgie that you would be picking for a week! hahah I actually just talked to Abe today and he told me you too had broken up and that you were having a hard time w your dad? Cal, I'm so sorry girl! Do you need to talk? Actually...remember how my phone is broken? :( I'm still here for you we'll just have to work harder for the next five days until I get my new one in the mail!

And how was Mexico?! And what kind of work are you doing at the hospital? Do you love it? Ok, seriously I MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH! I think my heart is starting to hurt! :(

K, I gotta go, but life is good...we just need to talk. I miss you again and love you with all my heart. I'll talk to you soon whether you like it or not! haha muah!

Too Long!

Rachie Face!

Oh my! GIRL, its has been fo eva! what in the heck have you been up to?! how is school? and life in general?! i called you the last weekend and left a message but you didn't call back punk! haha

anyway, so i'm doing wonderful! just loving the summer and working everyday of my life! and when i say that i totally mean it. i work mon, wed, fri at the MTC and tues, thurs, fri, sat, and sunday at the hospital so i'm definitely staying busy!

i don't think you know because i haven't talked to you in so long but i've been dating this boy for just over a month now and he's a total doll! really he's adorable! haha

how are boy things going with you?! fill me in girl!

i have to run but just wanted to post something really fast!

i love you!

Crazy Life

CAL-BAL!!

Hi baby! Sorry I never called you back I'm lame :( I hate that so much is happening with us and neither one of us has any idea about it! GR.... I am so excited to hear about your date! Are you in love do you think?! :) I really hope that he helps you get over the Blair boy because evey time I see him its a reminder of how dumb he is!

Seriously I hate that I already have boy problmes but I think I'm destined to it forever! Nursing is good but different than i thought.... I love it and I'm so excited for clinicals and stuff but it's really disorganized and you know how that bugs me! AH! It's kind of getting better but we'll see how the test this weekend goes! YIKES! I want to tell you all about it! oh and p to the s... Carlee is really nice Haha. Jeremy's mulet was so far from attractive I hate that you said that! hahah and funny story... Tinae asked if we were going to have pancake night and when I told her probably not cause that was our deal but I still wanted to do something just different she was really irritated. I thought it was funny :)

K I better get my buns studying but we need to talk this weekend! No exceptions!
Love you and I can't wait to hear from you. muah!

I'm missin you

Hey love! so i just wanted to so that i miss you. i called you yesterday and left a message but never heard back from you. sorry that i haven't gotten to talk to you lately. life has been crazy busy! how was your first day of nursing?!? i want to hear ALL about it! ah... life is so weird. i can't believe that you are going to one school and i'm going to another. and ya i want to hear all about your boy problems! i can't believe you already have them and you've only been in school for one day crazy girl! :) my date on Saturday was SO fun! He is actually taking me to lunch tomorrow! He is such a good guy! I'll have to tell you about it later. And if i don't get to, them i'll just write it all on here because thats that this is for right?! :) well i love you and i hope to talk to you soon! i don't know how often you actually read this so you might not even get it until its totally after the fact but oh well! love you!

sweey nothings

Happy Birthday!!!

Remember how I just gave you the best birthday present a girl could ever ask for!? I mean seriously you didn't even ask and you got it! That must be because you are pretty special :) I just love you so much...words really can't express to you. When I say I'm addicted I mean it straight up 100% :) We're going to watch a movie now and sleep on our floor so I will see you in just one second when I come to cuddle up next to you!!

Just Us

So i figured that the wall was a little bare and it needed to have a starting post. you best be checking this all the time after i leave because i'm pretty much going to write my life on this wall! Can i just say that i absolutely love you?! Seriously this semester would have been crap for brains if i had not been able to spend it with you! I know that its sad i'm leaving and i'm going to miss you like crazy but, i'm so freaking excited for you to start nursing. Girl you're going to rock! And i promise to visit if you promise the same in return (which you really have no choice in the matter because you have to whether you like it or not).

I'm so excited for out new blog. its way tight and we are way tight so all together we're just tight!