oh my gosh i miss you!

wow rach! that was quite the story. can i just tell you that your example to always rely on your Heavenly Father in times like that is amazing! you are such a wonderful girl and i'm sad that i don't ever see you or talk to you. :( BUT i am SO HAPPY that you are happy and in love girly! thats so awesome! i can't believe that my baby girl i talking about getting married...is kinda weird. but i think something is in the water because amelia is pretty much engaged and i'll tell you abut dave here in just a second.

okay so here is goes...Christopher and Scarlet are doing really well. They are living in Texas right now and she leaves for Guatemala the end of this week. Then they fly back on Christmas day, get married on the 27th, honeymoon and its off to Tennessee for Christopher to start school the first week in January. So thats kinda crazy and i miss him but its good and they are happy. My mom is ridiculously in love and its the best thing in the world to see her that way. They got married just over two weeks ago and its the freaking cutest thing ever! haha the wedding was perfect and they are perfect for each other. I've never seen my mom this happy!

As for Dave...we've been dating for just over 2 months and things are going great. He is the biggest tease but still is the sweetest guy ever! If you want to kno the whole story of how we met and stuff then just let me know. I just don't want to bore you! ha But W\who knows, maybe we'll be planning our weddings at the same time! haha

Work is going really well. I am working at Utah Valley Regional Medical Center on the Psychiatric floor and i absolutely LOVE it! School is still in the making because i'm still trying to get all the paper work done for BYU-I to take the credits off campus and its the biggest pain in the butt! Anyway, other then that things are going really well and life is just moving along.

I just moved into my new place and its so cute and i love it. Things just got a little out of control with Callie and i couldn't take being there anymore so i told her i was done playing these stupid games and i was leaving, and i did and that was that! ha its kind of ridiculous actually but what can ya do huh?!

well i love you and i hope that you figure things out with Ben. sounds like a keeper! hope school and everything is going good! i miss you! muah!

Oh my gosh Cal I don't even know where to start. First I'm going to ask you all these questions and you have to answer every single one of them!!! haha so who is this Dave boy?!! Give me the skinny on him! And then how is your job, what exactly are you doing and how is the school situation? How are Christopher and Scarlett and your mom and her man? And lastly what the heck happened with Cal that was so bad you had to move? Are you ok?

Cal, I'm so in love with Ben I can't even tell you! We've been dating for like 2 1/2 months is all but we've grown a lot cause I went home for the 7 week break and he stayed in the Burg (he's from Colorado) we talked every night on the phone and got to know each other so well that way cause it was all we had ya know? Of course my dad is being difficult but what else is new? ;)

This story is so condensed it's gonna be way crap for brains but that's ok. So earlier this week I totally had freak out and got a really strong impression that I needed to break up with him. I didn't want to at all and I was so stressed out about it. Abe came and gave me a blessing, I fasted and talked to Bishop Robinson (even though he isn't my bishop anymore haha) and then I went to the temple. The feeling that I got there was so amazing. I've seriously never felt anything that good in my life. I was feeling peacefull to some degree and I just thought "I need to break up w him and it's gonna suck so much and be so hard but it's what i need to do." But at the same time I couln't make a real decision and I couldn't actually do it. So that's why I was fasting and stuff was to know if that prompting I had gotten was legit or not. Anyway, for the first half of the time I was in the temple obviously i felt good cause it's the temple right? I can't explin it but I just didn't feel completely at ease. So I was reading my blessing after and praying like crazy and i realized I was so confused because I couldn't make a decision. I didnt' want to brake up w him but I was willing to do it if it was what Heavenly Father wanted. So I didn't want to but at the same time i did if that makes sense. So I'm in the temple and I realize I need to make my decision. I choose to be selfish and I decided I wanted to keep dating him. The feeling that I got after is practically indescribable Cal. I literally thought my heart was going to explode! Just like how they say burning in your bosom... well I felt it. A huge burden was lifted and my mind was clear. i wasn't sad, or confused. All I felt was joy and peace. And the fact that i was in the temple was a strong indicator for me that what I was feeling was the spirit. I have such a hard time sometimes deciphering my thoughts from the spirit but i know in my heart what I felt. It's so amazing feeling this way. It's moving so fast which is scary but at the same time not beacuse I care about him so much, I can't wait to be with him forvever. there's still a chance that it might not work out. I haven't asked and gotten an answer that way and I fell like it's to soon for that right now. If anything happened we wouldn't get engaged til winter semester but still, I think it most likely will end up that way ! :)

enought about that! haha Nursing is picking up with the school load. I had my first 12 hour clinical yesterday. I LOVED it!! We're at Madison this semester and it's so much better than EIRMC I can't even tell you. We had our Phlebotomy lab on friday and I got both my IV start and blood draw. It still scares me to do it cause we only did each one once, but it was fun! I am so excited to get done and be a nurse for real but I'm so glad that I still have 3 semesters to learn cause there is seriously so much to know! I'm sure you're feeling exactly the same way with where you are. I could talk to you forever about this too but my big thing I wanted to tell you about was Ben and It'll probably already take you hours to read and write back to all my questions so I'll let you go but I love you and miss you and can't wait to hear from you!

long time no chat!

Rachie Face!

my gosh its been forever! i don't even know if you check this anymore but i just wanted to hop on and say hi and that i hope things are going well for you and i miss you! if you do check this fill me in on how school and everything is going! oh and the boy...what is going on there?! well i have to run check on my patients but i love you and i hope to hear from you soon! muah!!!